Molly
I feel so lightheaded that I wouldn't be surprised if I fainted at any moment. Christian has turned up here, kissed me like his life depended on it and is now pinning me down on his lap by my hips... Fuck my life! Why has he come here when he could have just stayed away without having to see me again just as he has always wanted? Why is he acting this way? and more importantly, why the hell do I like it so much?
As for Tom, that little shit is going to pay for this, not only has he told Christian where I'm staying but he must have given him my room number too because there's no way the receptionist would hand out that information, she isn't allowed. "Molly, you ok?" I blink as I put my attention back on Christian completely forgetting that he was just talking to me. I'm so distracted by the hard bulge that I can feel under my ass that I zoned out for a moment there.
"Yes, sorry. So you want to talk about... us?" He nods his head with the sexiest smirk across his face and hell it just makes me want to kiss him. I've not kissed many men in my life but Christian kissing me was without a doubt the best kiss of my whole dam life. Maybe I should feel bad for thinking and feeling like that and not thinking of Archie but I don't, not after everything he has done to me.
Since he died I've struggled to imagine wanting another man again and the thought of kissing another man has made me feel sick and that's before I even think of doing anything else but from the first moment I met Christian I felt some kind of pull to him even if I did deny it and when he kissed me no bad thoughts entered my mind, not one bit. In fact, if anything it just felt perfect like it was always meant to be that way and right now I can't imagine not kissing him again but our situation is awkward and I'm properly getting in way above my head here.
"Hey, where did you go again?" The gentle touch of his fingers on my cheek brings my attention back to him once more. He slips his fingers under my chin and moves my head until I have no choice but to look at him. A laugh bubbles its way out of me. "Sorry, my mind keeps wandering off." He laughs and the sound brings butterflies to my stomach. " Well, can you ask it to come back please, I'd like to have a word with it." I've not seen this playful side to him before but now that I have I just want to see more and more of it.
I give a nod while I get my wondering mind under control. "Ok, I'm here. So what is it about us that you want to talk about? I need to leave for the airport soon or I'll miss my flight." The smile on his face drops lightning fast and at the same time, I feel his whole body tense up. What's that all about? "You're still thinking about leaving?" He tries to sound calm but I can tell that his pissed.
"Hmm, yeah? Why wouldn't I?" He stares at me for a moment as if trying to read my mind before he lets out a little sigh all while still holding on to my chin. "Molly, why do you think I'm here?" If I'm being honest with myself deep down I'm hoping he's here for me, to stop me from leaving which doesn't make any sense considering how we have been with each other but then again giving everything that's happened, him turning up here and kissing me like he has doesn't make sense either. Fuck my head hurts!
I shrug my shoulders not sure what to say. He moves his hand from my chin and slides it across my face until his hand is cupping my face and he's lightly tracing my cheek with his thumb. "Molly, I know that we've had a rough start and I know that I have been nothing but a dick to you and I also know that this may not make any sense to you right now but I like you, I really like you... maybe more than like you and I want you. I want you to stay in Houston and want you to be with me."
Holy hell balls he hasn't minced his words here. He may as well have thrown a grenade at me with how hard his words have hit me. "I don't... when... I mean... I'm confused." The words leave my mouth in a stutter. He lets out a little laugh before bringing his face closer to mine, with me sitting on his lap it brings us to almost level height although he still has to bring his head down a touch.
"Your fucking cute, that's what you are." His words make me blush and feel like a bloody schoolgirl. My instant reaction is embarrassing but I can't help it. It's been a long long time since any guy has talked in this kind of way to me and even with Archie it was different because we already knew each other but this...well, it's new and very very different.
"Chris, I don't understand. You don't like me or trust me for that matter." He looks sad for a moment which I hate but I need to understand what he's saying, I need him to be clear. "I was a fool, Molly, a fool and a fucking dickhead! I should never have treated you like I did and I'll forever regret how I treated you but I promise you that I don't feel like that anymore. If I'm being truthful I've felt a pull to you since the first moment I saw you and I've been fucking attracted to you since then too."
"I can understand you being cautious of me, you didn't know me but it felt like you made it a mission to hate me and turn others against me and I just need to know why? I just need to understand." He lets out a sigh and slides his hand down my body until it rests on my hip along with his other hand causing a shiver to course through my body that I can't hide nor does he miss it as his lips twitch with a slight smirk that I know he's trying to hide.
"Honestly... As I said I was attracted to you from the very first moment that I saw you. I can still remember exactly what you were wearing and how your hair was styled and how I instantly got hard and well, it annoyed me. It annoyed me how I was so attracted to you and yet I already felt like I shouldn't trust you. I think that I've let Amy's betrayal cloud my judgment since the moment that we broke up and with you I let it go into overload."
"But why? I mean I've heard your brothers talking and I know that you've been with other women since Amy so why did it affect you so much with me?" He swallows hard before giving me a serious look. "Because those women were just one night stands, nothing more, nothing less but with you, I knew straight away that I wanted more. I know it sounds crazy but it's true. The moment I saw you I knew I wanted all of you and it annoyed me because I hadn't wanted that since Amy and..."
He stops talking and looks off to the side. It's clear to see that he's speaking the truth and it's making my heart pound... hard. I turn the tables on him and take hold of his chin and move his head so he has to look at me "And what, Chris?" He squeezes my hips a little then lets out a long breath.
"I was shocked, Molly. The thoughts and feelings that I had for you shocked me and more than anything scared me. It scared me that I could think and feel that way about someone again and the thought of letting anyone in again after everything she has done absolutely terrified me so I was a prick and decided to push you away and keep pushing until I could get you to leave and I wouldn't have to deal with those feelings."
"So why didn't you just go with it then? I've left the house and I'm leaving Huston so why did you come here, Chris? Why didn't you just let me go and get what you wanted?"
"Because the thought of you leaving, of losing you terrifies me."