Me?
Brave?
Jesse snorted loudly and shook her head as she walked out of the room.
There wasn’t one brave bone in her body.
She was a coward and a weakling.
Totally plain and completely average.
Luke had told her that so many times that she knew she would never forget it. Just like so many other things he had said to her, things that ran through her head constantly. Every hour of every day.
Damn, that man for still affecting her like this after all these years!
If it wasn’t for him, she would’ve jumped the two men she heard speaking to each other in the lounge already. She would’ve shown them she wanted them just as much as they obviously wanted her.
That’s what the old her would’ve done.
Back then she hadn’t been afraid to go for what she wanted, never backing down until she got it. She used to be outgoing and completely outrageous.
Just like her two friends, which was probably why she had found herself in their tight little circle so quickly.
They called to that part of her that she hid away from and they embraced everything about her without criticism or judgement.
It was so refreshing and it had healed a big part of her shattered heart and confidence but there were still pieces lying around that they couldn’t help her with.
But being around Devon and Jax though. . .
Jesse stopped walking and cocked her head to the side as she listened to the brothers’ laugh, her stomach clenching at the sound.
If she had to be completely honest with herself, she didn’t want to leave them. She wanted to take their offer of staying with there and cook for them. She wanted a greeting like Jax had greeted her, every morning.
Well, not completely like that but with a hug and a kiss. A softly whispered ‘good morning’ from someone who was actually happy to see her.
She was too much of a wimp to go for it though.
To afraid to get hurt.
With a sigh, Jesse fell with her back against the wall and looked up at the ceiling. Her conversation with Sasha swirling around her head, confusing her even more.
She wasn’t brave . . . was she?
“Hey, what you doing?” Jax asked as he walked up the passage towards her.
Jesse straightened and tried to clear her face from anything that could give her away. She didn’t want him to know just how conflicted she was about her relationship with them.
“Just thinking.” She answered as he came to a standstill in front of her.
“Of what?” He asked as he lifted his hand to tuck a stray curl behind her ear.
Jesse clenched her fists as she fought the urge to lean into his touch.
“Just things.” She answered with a shrug.
Jax frowned at her evasive answer.
“What sort of things?” He asked, leaning down so that his face was inches away from hers. Watching as her eyes widened and her lips parted slightly as her breathing increased.
“I-I uhm,” She stuttered, her eyes glued to his mouth which was moving closer to her own.
“What was that?” He asked, a knowing smile curving his lips.
“I-I was just think-thinking of your proposal.” Jesse managed to get out, her body heating as Jax stepped closer to her. His chest lightly brushed against hers, making her nipples tighten painfully.
“Really?” He asked, arching a brow in disbelief.
All Jesse could manage was a nod.
“And have you made your decision yet?” He asked leaning even closer so that his lips lightly brushed against hers.
Jesse swallowed before answering in a soft whisper.
“No.”
“Hmm, don’t rush it. We can wait.” He said with a grin before straightening again. Trailing his fingers down Jesse’s flushed cheeks and brushing his thumb over her bottom lip.
He watched as something crossed over her face and she closed her eyes as if she was fighting something inside of herself before her tongue curled itself around his thumb. Drawing it within the warmth of her mouth before she rhythmically started sucking on it.
Jax hissed as her teeth lightly scraped against his skin, making him harden even more as he thought of her doing exactly what she was doing now to another part of his anatomy. His knees weakened as he pictured that.
Jesse’s eyes popped open as he jerked his hand away from her.
Before she could ask him what was wrong, he lifted her into his arms and wrapped her legs around him. His hands cupped the back of her thighs high enough that every time he took a step, his fingers slipped underneath her shorts and brushed against her core. Causing her breath to catch each time.
She slipped her arms around his shoulders as she felt herself tilt slowly backward. Jax pressed her onto the couch as he settled himself on top of her, claiming her lips in a kiss as she opened her mouth to protest. Realizing what she had started.
All thoughts left her mind as Jax’s tongue intertwined with hers, playfully nipping at her lips and lightly trailing his fingers up her sides.
Jesse panted and tightened her legs around his hips, pushing him against her aching mound. Mentally swatting away the annoying voice in her head telling her to stop.
She wanted him closer.
She wanted . . . his skin against hers. She decided and quickly grabbed the edge of his shirt. She broke the kiss long enough to pull his shirt over his head and throw it away from them. Tilting her face upwards again she allowed Jax to resume the kiss as she trailed her fingers down his chest. Her nails slightly dug into his skin, making Jax hiss against her lips.
Gripping her shirt just between her breasts, Jax jerked it down.
Nibbling his way down her neck, Jax latched onto her nipple and pulled at it hungrily. Groaning as Jesse whimpered in pleasure and pulled him closer. Her fingers twisted into his hair as she pulled him closer to her. Silently demanding more.
Frustration grew as he continued to divide his attention between her breasts, his fingers skimming up and down her legs. Avoiding all the places she desperately wanted him to touch.
Jax suppressed a smile when Jesse growled in frustration and pushed at his shoulders, forcing him onto his back so that she could take over. He had been beginning to wonder if he had to step up his play to get her to do so.
His breathing hitched as she settled herself firmly onto the erection straining against his jeans and rocking back and forth ever so slightly.
Forcing his eyes away from that tantalizing sight, Jax allowed himself to watch his hand as it drifted up her stomach, over her swaying breasts to rest onto the mark he had put there earlier the morning as she leaned down. He let her push his face to the side with her own so that she could nibble on his ear while she took his other hand and put it on the edge of her pants.
Making it clear what she wanted.
That quickly snapped Jax out of what he had been doing.
He couldn’t let it go further than this. Not without his brother being here as well. They had agreed that they were going to take her together the first time.
“Jesse, we have to stop.” Jax managed to say but Jesse didn’t seem to hear him as she worked her mouth from his ear down his neck. He hissed and clenched his hands on her hips as her teeth scraped against his nipple before moving on down his abdomen.
As she reached the edge of his jeans, Jax threaded his fingers into her hair to force her face up so that she could look at him. He was a goner as soon as he saw the glazed, fiery look in her eyes.
His grip on her hair tightened even more as she managed to open his jeans enough so that she could easily reach inside to wrap her hand around his large erection.
Jax groaned and dropped his head back onto the couch, unable to watch as she slowly licked her lips and lowered her head to his dick. The first touch of her mouth on him, had Jax groaning and his hips helplessly jerking forward roughly. Wanting to be even further in the warmth of her sucking mouth.
Inch by inch filled Jesse’s mouth as she took him as far as she could into her mouth.
Sweet beaded Jax’s forehead as he tried not to pump himself into her mouth. He could feel his orgasm building. Coming along much faster than he wanted it to as she started swallowing him faster and faster.
Awareness spread through Jax and he opened his eyes to see his brother, who had gone to the room to change, lowering himself next to them. His burning blue eyes on Jesse, who was still unaware that he had joined them.
Jax felt her freeze, her mouth wrapped around his head, as Devon brushed her hair to the side so that he could clearly see what she was doing.
“Slowly.” He commanded softly, leaning in to whisper it against her ear. “Take him slowly.”
After a moment of hesitation, Jesse did as he said.
Following every word that Devon whispered to her, Jesse managed to keep Jax on the edge for so long that he finally started begging for release. Unable to handle the need for the orgasm that she and his brother continued to keep just out of his reach.
“Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease . . .”He whispered repeatedly, his hand now aching where he gripped Jesse’s hair painfully.
But she didn’t seem to mind.
Finally, with the single word, “Now”, Devon allowed Jesse to give his brother what he wanted.
Jax let out a harsh yell as he finally found his release. His hips jerked as he shot his seed down Jesse’s throat.
Jesse let him go with a soft ‘pop’ after she was sure he was done. Her body hummed with satisfaction even though she had not been the one to come.
She felt powerful.
Alive.
There had never been a time that she had felt this way and it was absolutely AMAZING.
Suddenly she was lifted off of Jax’s limp form and into Devon’s, which had the whole reality of what she had just done come crashing upon her. A blush spread over her face and she dropped her eyes from his.
“Next time, wait for me,” Devon whispered into her ear and she shivered involuntarily as the vibration of his voice traveled down her spine.
Her eyes shot up to his and she saw that his eyes once again held that unnamed emotion. The one that had her heart fluttering in her chest and her stomach tightened painfully.
“You-you’re not . . . mad?” She whispered, her fingers curling into his chest as he slid his hands up her naked back. Her legs flexed around his hips as shots of pleasure went through her body.
“Never.” He reassured her, his eyes flicking to his brother as he managed to sit himself up before coming back to hers.
“I’ve made a booking for us at one of those nice restaurants in town. Eight o’clock.” Devon informed them as he straightened up, Jesse still in her arms.
Jesse clutched at his arms as her legs wobbled slightly underneath her weight.
“I don’t have anything to wear.” She told him as his arm curled around her waist.
Devon shrugged.
“We can either go buy you something or we can stop by your place so that you can grab something and change before we go.”
Jesse blinked up at him as Jax started laughing from his spot on the couch.
“What?” Devon demanded, looking between Jesse and Jax.
“I can’t just quickly grab something!” Jesse told him with a frown.
“Why the hell not?” He asked which only made Jax laugh harder and Jesse’s frown to become darker.
“You really have a thing or two to learn about women, Dev.” Jax said as he casually got to his feet. Only the fact that his pants were still undone gave away what had just happened, that and the slight sheen of sweat coating his body. “I’ll drive you home in just a bit so that you can go get everything you need. Unless you want to go shopping?”
Jesse shook her head as he stepped closer.
“Too bad. Would’ve liked to buy you something sexy.” Jax said with his usual grin as he dropped a kiss on her lips and quickly pinched one of her nipples, making her gasp in surprise and outrage.
Jax chuckled as she quickly jerked her shirt up to cover herself, returning her scowl with a wink before sauntering out of the room.
“I’m just going to take a quick shower. Give me half an hour then we can go.” He said over his shoulder just as he disappeared around the corner.
Devon cupped his hand under her chin and tilted her face up towards him.
They stood there staring at each other for a while.
No words were spoken between them as both tried to read the words in the others eye’s.
Finally, Devon let her go but not after giving her a kiss that had her toes curling into the soft carpet.
“Sit with me.” He demanded rather than asked but Jesse still nodded as he pulled her to the couch where he pulled her onto his lap. Tucking comfortably under his chin as he switches the television on.
As they sat there Jesse stared at the screen unseeingly. One thought revolved around her head over and over again.
What the fuck is she doing?