From this angle I could see the pain etched in Jake’s face. His eyes locked on the door and I watched as the cogs churned in his head. The emotions he was going through were so obvious. He took one step toward the door and I held my breath as he contemplated going after her. He closed his eyes and his hands curled into fists. He turned his back to the door and froze as his eyes flashed yellow. His wolf was fighting him.
Was it fighting to run home?
Or was it telling him to turn around and go to Clara?
Viktor linked me but I ignored him as I kept my eyes on my other mate. Jake turned toward the door and broke into a run. He opened the door and slammed it behind him. A pained cry escaped past my lips as I stared at the closed door. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I willed him to run back out. I don’t know how long I waited there for him to come out. The moon was high in the sky and the night time animals woke up. He wasn’t coming back out tonight.
I was stuck between waiting out here for him and rushing into their house. I couldn’t make my mind up about which I wanted to do. Every time I tried to walk toward the house my feet froze. Fear of what I would find kept me rooted to where I stood. I don’t remember how I got myself up or when I decided to leave the witches quarters. Darkness surrounded me as I walked through the woods. I stumbled and fell to my knees a number of times.
Viktor rushed out to me when I got back to the packhouse. He grabbed me and checked me for injury. He cursed when he found the cuts and scrapes but I refused to answer him. I couldn’t find the words and wouldn’t speak until I could trust myself to speak. He pulled me into his arms and carried me back to our room.
In his arms I was safe, in his arms I didn’t have to worry about keeping it together. My shoulders shook as sobs wracked my body. I turned toward him and buried my face into his chest. When we got to our room, he signaled to someone to close the door behind us. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he walked us to the bed.
“Baby. Please tell me what’s wrong. Tell me what’s gotten you so upset. I can’t help you if I don’t know what’s going on. If you fill me in I can try to make you feel better,” Viktor pleaded.
Viktor placed me down on the bed and pulled my arms from around his neck. I turned from him but he grabbed me and made me face him. He dropped to his knees in front of me and pulled my hands together. I watched my mate as he pressed a kiss to my clasped hands.
“I love you,” Viktor said.
Did he know?
Was he aware of Clara and Jake’s relationship?
Would he let him leave us?
Would he let him bring her in?
I don’t want that.
I don’t want her to be apart of us.
I don’t want to share them.
The time for that was behind us. If that’s what Viktor wanted the time for that would have been when he found out that he was her destined. He rejected her. I know how unfair it is that we took in Jake but not her. So much has happened since then and I don’t think I could welcome her like I welcomed Jake.
Is the Goddess punishing us for our choice back then?
“I love you,” Viktor murmured. “I know I’ve fucked up so many times in the last few days. I know that I’ve done a lot to make you hate me and I know there are a lot of things I need to say sorry for. I love you so much. I need you in my life. I can’t imagine a life without you and I’m sorry that I didn’t show you how much I love you. I’m sorry I made you feel lonely that night I walked out. I had a lot on my mind the night that I left you alone in this room. It’s no excuse and I should have made sure I told you were I was going. I should have checked in while I was running. I’m sorry I made you worry. I’m sorry I’ve givefn you multiple reason to doubt and question me. I’ll do whatever I can to prove myself to you. I’ll do everything you want me to. Just please, please don’t leave me. Trust in me. Believe that I love you and let me spend eternity proving it to you.”
His eyes swam with emotion. I sighed as I looked down at him. I was overwhelmed with what I had witnessed earlier and I wasn’t ready to dive back into it. I wanted to drown in my mate and his love. I wanted to be kissed passionately and made love to. I leaned down and pulled Viktor by the hair. He head jerked back, his chin tipped up, and his neck was exposed to me. I sucked on his mark and Viktor growled.
“Kacie,” Viktor warned. I began to slide down from the bed but Viktor’s hands gripped my thighs. “No. I won’t have you on the floor. You need to be careful.” I ignored him but no matter how much I tried to get down onto the floor he wouldn’t let me budge. I pressed my lips to his and sucked on his lip.
“Please.”
Viktor groaned as I kissed him. He pulled me forward by my thighs. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he stood to his feet.
“Please,” I begged as tears streamed down my cheeks. Viktor cursed but put his knee onto the bed. I was placed down carefully and he crawled on top of me.
“Damn it, Kacie. I don’t know what’s gotten into you, but I’ll give you what you need. You will give me answers after. Do you hear me?” Viktor asked.
“Yes, just please. Make love to me.”