Ivy's POV
"Take that coat and go back to the pack house," He ordered, almost growling at me. His gaze was piercing, like a hungry lion watching its prey from afar.
I took a deep breath and shook my head. "No," I managed to say. "I'm not going back."
"Ivy, listen to me." His voice was stern but I didn't want to listen at all. I'm sick of it.
"I don't want to! I'm your mate for god's sake! I'm the one who should take care of you in a situation like this. Do you find me so repulsing that you'd rather suffer alone than spend your rut with me? Huh?!" All my anger was pouring out. Why didn't he think about how I would feel?
-"Imagine how fed up the alpha must be to spend his rut alone than mating her? That alone tells you how good of a Luna she is!"-
-"No matter what she does, she can never be on the same level as Luna Avery in the Alpha's heart."-
-"Goodness, she must be terrible in bed for him to run away like that!"-
-"She acts overly nice every day. I always knew it was fake. The Alpha knows it too, that's why he's refusing to mate with her."-
Words of the Pack members flooded my mind. They whispered them in the pack hallway this morning when I was looking for Cassian. I can't really say 'whispered". They were saying it just enough loud for me to hear it and then giggling among themselves.
What's worse is that all those people were the same age as me or older. They were trying to make fun of me and all I could do was listen to them wordlessly. I felt like a pathetic loser.
"Look, I'm saying this for your own good. You're young. You have no idea what I'm going through. And trust me, you don't want to find out. Rut is not something easy to handle. Just go home before my instincts take over." Cassian talked, putting great effort into his words to sound calm. "I know some pack members talked vile things to you today. I will take care of them when this is over so please go back."
"What are you not understanding? I can make my own decisions. Stop acting like you know what's best for me because you don't. I'm struggling every day because you refuse to accept me as your mate. My mind and body are falling apart. I'm a joke to the people I tried to protect. I'm so sick of living like this! If you don't want me then reject me! I don't care if I die. At least, it wouldn't be as painful as living like this…"
Cassian silently stared at me for a moment. "Fuck!" I heard him curse as he struggled to stand up. His eyes were glowing and I grew scared as each second passed. It looked like he was having an inner battle with a beast. And I knew who that beast was.
I gulped and stood my ground. I know how undignified I might look in his eyes. I'm not asking him to invite me in for a cup of tea. I'm begging him to mate me. If anyone had told me this is what would become of me, I would've laughed in their face. But I need to get an answer today.
If he's not going to accept me, then I will reject him. Even if that means death. Who am I living for? There's no one left for me.
My thoughts were cut off when I saw the piercing eyes of the predator staring into my very soul. Cassian stood at the doorway with the cabin door wide open. His scent drowned me, making me weak in the knees. It felt like the air was sucked out of my chest.
"If this is what you want…" He was in front of me in a second, grabbing my hand in a tight grip that made my body slam onto him as if I weighed nothing more than a feather. "I will fucking give it to you." His raspy voice shook me to the core. "But remember…you asked for this."
That's what I heard before I was dragged inside the cabin. I fell to the floor when he let go of me and when I looked back, the door had already been clicked shut. I stood up but my senses were overwhelmed by the thick smell of wild herbs in the room. His pheromones were everywhere and it was intoxicating.
My feet involuntarily moved back as Cassian took each step forward. "C-Cassian?" I called his name. He looks like a different person. There was nothing gentle about him. And I didn't know if I should be scared or excited about that.
Somehow the hunger in his eyes thrilled me. I must be sick in the head.
I watched as he stripped out of his shirt as he got closer. The cabin was silent except for the noise of heavy breaths. My hands curled around the hem of my dress to ease my nervousness.
"What?" He raised a brow. "Are you scared now? Do you want to leave?"
I stayed silent for a moment before I looked down and shook my head. His footsteps stopped and I looked up to see him staring down at me in surprise.
He raked a hand through his hair and muttered under his breath. "Impossible," He scoffed. "You are impossible," I watched him walk towards the bed and sit down. My mind was jumbled to make any sense of what was happening. I only knew that I had to be closer to him.
He stared at me silently for a few minutes before he spread his legs. He beckoned me with a whip of his two fingers and I moved like an obedient puppy.
"Kneel." His voice made my knees weak and even before I could understand what was said, I was kneeling between his legs. He intently stared at my face for a few minutes and I was mesmerized as I watched his eyes glow. His wolf is on the surface. Waiting for a chance to strike and take control.
His heated gaze roamed all over my face and every single hair on my skin stood up when his fingers touched me. His rough hands caressed my cheek and then moved to press on my lips. "Open it." He said. His words were simple yet commanding. I felt my heartbeat in my throat as I intently watched his every move.
His thump slipped into my mouth and pressed on my tongue. I took in a shaky breath. I feel like I wouldn't have the privilege to do that as I wish in a few minutes or so. I was waiting for something. Call me a slut but I don't have an ounce of shame in my head at this moment.
All I want is for him to manhandle me all the way he wants to.
Cassian retreated his hand and I watched as he unzipped his pants. Heat spread all over my body and I bit my lips as he took his member out. It was standing up proudly. Thick and long, leaking precum.
I gulped. There's no way it would fit in my mouth. But I would be lying if I said I didn't wish to taste it.
The thought of Cassian moaning from how good I made him feel was enough for a thousand butterflies to explode in my tummy, causing me to clench my legs together.
His rough hands grabbed my chin and made me look up at him. I watched his lust-clouded eyes drink me in as a smirk bloomed on his lips. He pulled my face closer to his crouch and I felt a shiver run down my spine when he spoke.
"Suck it good."